Sleep late Again

yeah...

last sunday my old housemate move into our house again

haha!!

so happy now

we know each other since the first day in Segi

we stay together last time

until last year

they only move out

because of soemthing happen within us

today

they move back again

we can continue our life like last time d

but

the bad thing is i start become a cat

everyday sleep around 2 someting nearly 3

haiz

because of them too

everyday nonstop talking

how to change?

my eye will become panda if still continue like this

ugly girl again next time

i already change my lifelast few month

slp earlyeveryday aroung 12am

my eye become better and better

now

all the panda come back again

i need to change

2009 Spotlite Teen Idol 校花校草

Moral Courswork

haiz

my assignment coming again

this time i am doing my last min work d

quite busy recently

i nearly forgotten need to pass up the assignment already

today

my group member remind me

haha!!

then i just realize that i forgot it

sorry May

i will send it to you by tonite

haha!!

but i think i am the poor wan

because i not really know the meaning

and

how to find it

haiz

this is my plan tonite

finish my moral coursework

i need to pass the exam

Singapore....here i come

last few month i told my parent that i wan to go to singapore

to continue my study there

they didn't say anything to me also

i though they don't wan to let me go

but

last few day

my mum told me i can go there once i finish my practical

haha!!

i am so happy now

i plan to take my A level there

i will stay with my aunt together

because she is single

she is so happy once she know i will be there

too many thing happening here

i don't know what should i do

i am tired with the busy life now

work

fashion show

road show

half more year i wll be stay here

i told myself before

i need to go ahead

i don't wan to step and stay in the same place

i need to improve myself

everyvtime when i go to a new place

i will find the different experience in my life

new try, new experience, and new life

actually it too fast for me

only 6 month

i will concentrate in my study within this 6 month

and

i will remember all my friends here

you all given me a new experience within this 2 years

because of you all i improve a lot

i become a active and happy girl

but

i won't stay at the same place all the time

i will find my new experience....

anyway

thanks you mum

Home Sweet Home

Back to hometown again

this few only have 2 day class

monday and friday

it good for me to stay at hometown

haha!!

i can rest well here

can become a princess

i felt like so tired to stay at pg

too many thing happening all the time

especially last few day

i really not happy enought

until today

my heart feel so lonely

haiz

so i plan to come back to my lovely hometown "JAWI"

i need to started my practical soon

will be a busy month for me

until december

semester started

july resit paper exam

assignment

exam

then continue the last thing practical again

i plan to taking my A level also

after i finish all the thing

i feel so warm after i come back here

at least i got my family member to help me forgot the sadness

even i didn't told them anything

but

once i saw them i will feel happy

JC

you bring out all my sadness again

i don't know what should i do now

you bring back all the things that you given to me...

Show Time

yesterday was i busy day

but i love it

last few day happenning something that make me sad

i don't know what should i do now

only can follow what he wan

ghaiz...

yesterday was Style Flash Graduation Ceremory

i am invited to become their model

G hotel ball room are o nice

and class

i love it...

there are 3 theme during the fashion show

Brider

evening

Movie

my part is evening

i didn't have anything to taking photo also

only have my own photo and body design

my evening them is based on gold color

we still need to dance on the stage

haiz

anyway

thanks for my make up artice so much

Permata Trip

this morning i wake up early again

haiz

very tired and not enought slp even i slp around 10pm

we are having a Permata Trip at Bertam with lecture and coursemate today

let my intro to you all what is PERMATA

it was a govermant kindnergarten and nursery school

the education system are montessori

suitable for children 0-3 years old only

haha!!

actually i don't know what is that

until i reach there

i only understand

the children there a different

very quite

and

small cute sides

they can't follow the activities we plan to them at all

only know how to look at each other

the sun light today was very big

i feel blur after reach home

i love the facilities there

it is so special

but the environment are not so good enough

anyway

eather it is good or bad

it will be my good memory

Novel@Net >>> music

my hobi come back again

i like to read novel

love story novel

and

listen to music

this few day i crazy with this 2 thing

my parents say i am crazy

my friends say i nothing to do

too free d

haha!!

now i tell you all the reason

music and novel make me feel relax everytime

even my mood is bad and sad

but

once i do this 2 things

my heart and mind will becom relax. soft, and happy

especially the novel

the lovely story of every novel make me crazy

lot of ppl say novel it just a dream

the story it only a dream for us

that is not the truth

but

i love it

this dream can make me happy

even in real life will not be happen

haha!!

last nite i feel so sad and in bad mood

until this morning on the way go back to pg also same

this feeling can't out of my heart

but

once i put the ear phone

and

on the music

the bad mood was gone

the car sound, chatting sound and etc can appear in my ear

that was only music

i love it so much...

you all can try it too

it really useful

thanks....my dear coursemate

today once i step into the moral class

all my coursemate keep asking me the same question..

" You got take this subject meh? "

because of my absent

i didn't have any group for my assignment

unlucky

today is the presentation

i have no group at all

all my coursemate already have group

they don't know i taking this subject

but

thanks for them

they discuss among themself

then put my name in the power point slides

thank you so much

i will help you all do the assignment next time

and also the power point slides

haha!!

because of you all

i no need to go to group with other ppl

the moral studies class is full of nursing student

whole auditorium is full of nursing uniform

haha!!

the class is very noise

lectural sound solf like ant

totally cannnot hear what she say

the following article is for my coursemate DECE student:

" heh girl, thank you so much for you all, not only for today

i learn lot of thing from you all since the 1st day i step into segi college DECE classes

i love you all so much

because of DECE gal

i learn how to independence

i learn how to improve my english

and

i learn how to do assignment and power point

until today

i can do all this myself

Thanks you so much

you all will be my best coursemate and friends forever "

Started Class

it time to started my class

last week is the 1st week of moral class

but i didn't attend it for whole week d

because i busy for my fashion show for few day

and my model contest

tomorrow i need to go d

if not i will get BAR from teacher

haha!!

i feel like so lazy to ateend it

because of not all my friend taken this suject

just few of them

some more the class only available for twice a week

monday and friday

i don't like the time

why don't they put monday and tuesday ??

tuesday , wednesday and thursday i nothing to do

wan to go anyway also cannot

haiz

i sleep for whole day yesterday

and

last nite i slp early too

until this morning 10am

haha!!

this week will be also my busy week

monday >>> class

Wedneaday >>> kursus

friday>>> class

saturday>>> hair do

sunday>>> fashion show and help my friend to become her model

haiz

busy busy and busy

but i quite like it

haha!!

Damm tired....

this contest really make me tired enough

haiz

the time management are no good also

no time or us to eat

no time for us to rest

and

very rush

i didn't have time to eat yesterday

they keep saying no time d

cannot eat

but our contest time change suddenly without any information

from 9pm change to 11pm

another one thing

told us 11pm

but start at 12.30am

haiz

all of us are so angry yesterday

hungry

tired

hot

but we are very lucky

there was 2 group contested

we are group 2

group 2 ppl got a fashion show at soho

that what group 1 didn't have

we got beautiful clothes every round

our stage are special too

even this contest i didn't get anything

but

i am happy

because it let me realize that i already solve my problem

i also can do it

改变的友谊

这回忆是我永远不会忘记的，难道我们的友谊不能回到以前吗？

兜兜转转的那么久，唯一没改变的就是我们.....

这张是照片就当成了我们友谊的句点

难道友谊真的会改变吗？

我从来都不大相信这句话

尤其是在我们这班朋友之间

曾经我们是多么的要好

但是随着时间一分一秒地流失

我们的友谊就像河流里的水一样

慢慢的离开

曾经我关在房间想了很久

是什么原因让我们回不到从前

让我们都变得那么的不合了？？

让我们没有以前那么健谈

以前那些打搭闹闹得日子呢？？

收在那里了？？

还记得以前我一个人出来念书

你们就是我第一班认识的朋友

因为有你们

我变了

我变得很开朗

摆脱了关闭十多年的文静形象

让我找到了全新的自己

可惜这段友谊维持不久

因为成绩差

中间有几位就退学了

少了在学校的接触

我们的感情变得更淡

每个人的身边多了另外一半

接触的时间也变得少

感情也因为一些小小的原因不见了

当我回头看时

已经太迟了

真的很心痛

唯一不变的就是我们这四位好姐妹吧？？

真的很庆幸

可以认识你们三位那么好的朋友

虽然中间你们搬出去了一年

今天你们又搬回来了

我真的不敢相信

我们四位也变了

各有各的生活

有的找到了另外一半

有的就因为朋友的关系改变了

对于我来说应该是累了吧？？

我变得很贪玩

很爱念书

很想照顾自己

很想一个人静一静

维持了半年这样的生活

到今天我还是觉得很喜欢

自少我不用去在乎什么

自少我是一个人的

在这段友谊之间

我是唯一一位当中间人的

什么人都没有得罪

什么人多好

虽然回不到以前那样闹得日子

但是我已经很满足了

到今天为止

在你们眼中

我还是你们的朋友

$$$ fly away...

my money all fly aways within 2 hour

haiz

yesterday i went out with one of my friends

we plan to go to perangi mall to buy something

i need to buy the contest shoes and pants and etc...

and

my friends because of she 1st time taking the salary

so she wan to go to buy something

1st we go to taking the steambot at perangi mall

then i start to buy and searh something

as the same

i went to my lovely shop to buy the hot pants

my mum ask me to buy that

and price was high

higher than chinese new year price lot

at last i buy it too...

because i really love that pants

cap..

i found a cap for my dance in Vince& co

a cute cap

with the price of RM 40

clothes..

i saw lot of my lovely shirt

especially the long shirt

i like to wear it with the hot pants

somemore the price after offer was very low

i cannot tahan

my friends and eye decide to choose 2 pieces only

dress

this is my 1st time buy the dress without my mum

haha!!

i choose a sexy dress

with the design of behind and in front " low cut"

at last i realize that i already spend RM 350 with all that thing

include boot, and few more shirt , white skirt

my friend spend RM 200

haha!!

2 of us getting crazy with shopping yesterday

even we spend lot of money

but we are happy

Drunk

i drunk again yesterday nite

haiz

i went to mois with my friend

there was to pack

lot of ppl

we cannot find the place too

lucky we got a friends in VIP bring us inside

at last we find a table in VIP area

quite a long time i didn't drink " Martelle" (i don't know the spelling)

4 of us drink too much d

for mine

i drink too fast

nonstop within 30 min

at last my head feel heavy

and blur

2 of my friends also same with me

blur blur blur

haha

so they decide to stay at my house to slp

my stupid air-conditioning don't know why cannot cool

i totally cannot slp at all

but after my friends go back around 6am

my air- conditioning becaome cool d

haha!!!

so funny.....

Time to change

Is time to change my hairstyle

this few week

i felt that i hair are so heavy

too long d

very hot too

last week i go to find my hairstylist

he told me that my hair need 300 buck

not include anything yet

only purm

if include cut

need another 65 buck

treatement need 140 buck

haiz

All together need RM 505

oh my god

but

i still wan to go to purm it

i will do it after my contest

i cannot tahan d

especially the weather now

very hot

when i told my mum the price

she just keep quite

i know what she think

because my hair is lot

so i cannot asking for the cheaper price

all the shop almost same

yesterday when i saw my old hair style

i can't believe that it me....

Naturally

today

i found the answer through my feeling

i understand his feeling too

even though he didn't tell me

but i can see and feel with myself

if you all got see my blog everyday

for sure you all will remember the last few article

a article with the titile of

" Touching moment "

today i found the answer through myself

i want to let everything go naturally

i don't wan to choose anyone

i don't wan to give any answer

depend from my feeling

the thing that i understand is

i am no feeling to " Peichew and V " anymore

i am looking forward

this few day lot of friend s asking me

why you don't wan to find a bf

and

why you wan to be single

everytime i just keep qiute with all this question

now i give you all the answer

" i can't find anyone that really love me "

so...

how i going to have bf

even i am single

but

at least i am happy

even thought sometime feel lonely

but

i am don't wan to choose a guy that not love me to be my bf

i can see ppl feeling when they talking to me

lie or not lie

their face can told me.....

everything that i hope is only go naturally

Hip Hop Dance

yeah!!

at last i got my found my talent

but still need to learn

i will learn hip hop dance from my brother

he is a professional dancer 

and also a performance for hip hop dance

last nite he told me that if i wan he can teach me

haha!

i am so happy to hear that

it was limited time for me to learn

because i semester going to started on monday

few more day for me to learn

and

next friday will be my contest already

i already stop my dancing life for 2 year

i still remember that the last time i perform was 2007 year

after i finish my spm

this few day i need to recall back all my memory 

to learn hip hop dance from my brother again

the main point is my crazy brother

plan all the difficulty step for me

very hard to catch up la

the beat of the song very fast also
terrible

when i scold him

he told me that

“ this is not a performance la, this is the contest, you need to win this semi final just 

can go into the final, even this is the model contest but talent very important too. "

i believe him

because all his friends are going to contest also learn from him

this time...

i need to believe him too

and 

believe myself too

nothing is impossible

if i try my best

i think i can do the best too...

where is my love??

疯了

我真的快疯了

最近的我很反常

根本不知道自己在干嘛

尤其是当我一个人的时候

我都会很自然的打开电脑里所下载的戏

一集一集的看完

这是我的爱好

生活上的事情真的让我很辛苦

我很想放弃一切

最近受到了电影的影响

觉得很空虚

真的很想好好的去恋爱

单身了将近半年

现在的我才发觉真的很寂寞

很想找一个爱人去谈一场完美的恋爱

我很久都没有这样的感觉了

真的很怀念

生活上除了读书，工作，玩乐，选美

真的让我觉得很闷

朋友虽然多

但是永远都不会让我空虚的心从新开心起来

读书

每次都要比别人努力

做的事情永远都会比别人多两倍

有时我真的很想很想把它们都丢在一旁

别人的成绩可以很容易的及格

但我却刚好相反

还要承受班上那些人的批评

选美

选美都我来说就像面具表演秀

在台上的演出永远都要表现得比别人优秀

很有自信

在这个生活里永远找不到朋友

每个人的心里都会藏着一把刀

一个个的将对手给杀死

虽然表面上看起来跟你很好

但是心里永远都会将你打败

所以对我来说真的很辛苦

习惯了每天那样过生活

真的很累

我的心也累了

我该怎么办？？

我担心如果在这样下去我真的会疯掉

如果我身边可以出现属于我的 “他” 就好了

但是到现在为止

连影子都没看见

haiz

Talent ??

oh my god..
talent again
haiz

this contest need to have a talent leh
that is the thing i poor
what should i do??
dancing??
(not really nice)
singing
(i think i will be the one kick out by the judge if i do that)
they wan me to choose one between this 2
i also don't know how to choose

this contest i need to spend money again
they need
-white skirt ( i only have dark blue and black skirt)
-black boot (i only have white and brown)
-black hot pants ( what color of hot pants i also have but i don't have black)
what should i do??
need to buy again??
at least need 200 buck to buy this
especially the white skirt
where can i get this?
very hard to buy and found la!!

today the person in charge call me
they say the contest will be run for 3 round
and
they have the bikini wear too
that is the thing i am very scare
i didn't have the beautiful body shape
and
have a big tummy
how i wear this??

haiya..
no matter how
i will try my best
haha!!