Miss Auto City

one of my friend from modeling calling me last few day
she ask me wan to join the model contest or not
at 1st 
i not plan to do that also
i not really like to do this
because i got experience about
" experience model" VS " no experience model"
i know other contested feeling once they see the experience model 
the feeling was so scare
the performance will totally break because of they see other model are better than them
that is the reason i not really wan to join

but after i think properly
long time i didn't join the "Miss” contest d
the 1 i join most of them are the model or top model
haha!!
i fill in the form last night and pass up to my friend
i decide to join this contest d

to win the price

because the price are so attractive

" Miss Auto City "

at Juru

come to support me oh!!

haha!!!

during 12, 13, and 14 of Jun

when my mum hear that

she scold me

she ask me why i wan to join this kind of contest again

i can go to the bigger contest ma

actually i also don't know why

price and free gua

i too free until nothing to do d

ok!

once i decide to join the contest

i will try my best during the contest

and

i won't give face to any once

( other contested )

even though this is just a simple and easy job for me

but

easy job also need to try the best

and 

put my effort

wish i can get a good result

QE 2 Nite

long time i didn't go to QE２ d
yesterday is the 1st time i go since break up with Pei Chew (my last 2 bf)
that is the reason why i don't wan to go there
i scare i will miss him and think about him again
because of my 1st time going to QE 2 last time
i break up with him on that day

my 1st time going there
and
also is the last nite he become my bf
i scare to go there so much
but
at last
i am not scare any more
for sure last nite the moment in my mind with him come back
but i realize that i didn't miss him anymore
he is not stay in my heart any more

once i walk into the Club
i saw lot of eye looking on me
why??
so funny
haha!!
especially the guy
i am so scare to see this
don't know what they think in the mind

thanks for my friend to bring me there
(he don't know this story)
he call me and ask me to go
so
i just follow
thank you so much
haha!!

Money time

tomorrow start working d lo

in the nursery school

there got a function there

our working time is 8.30am to 11.30am

the boss only told me 3 hour

but i know that won't be only 3 hour working time

they sure will be end late

haiz

so i need to wake up at 7am d

so late

but because of money

i can't think so much

need to go to work

last nite my mood are not so good

because of the hate feeling come back again

"aeroplane feeling"

one of my friend only joking to me

but i don't know why my mood will be like this

i also don't know how to explain

i angry because of i hate this feeling

even i know he is joking

but my mood also cannot cool down

so sorry to him

haiz

lucky this morning my mood getting better d

recover soon

i seldom to get angry

but this is the only thing that make me angry wan

just now my friend saw me like this

she ask me to accompany her to gurney to find the job

now all of us need money also

for what leh??

for shopping and buy some book

haha!!

semester going to start soon

so

that mean them moment for waste the money coming soon

every se,ester we need to give few hundred of book money

some time cannot always take from parents also

if take too much

they will think that lie 

haha!!

that all for my today.....

bye..

muacks

Touching moment

touching
i don't know why i will be like this
this is my 1st time have this feeling after i break up with V
isit this is only i think too much
or
he really do what he promise to me

if i guy promise something to us
but
he can do anything without reason just because of he promise us
even meet some problem between this
what should i say??
and
why he wan to do that??
what he thinking about in this mind

can anyone told me??
isit just because of "friend"
every time he will told me like this
sometime i keep asking why? why? and why?
but
he ask
because friend ma!!

last night i going out to drink with my friends
my friend told me the same thing with what i keep in my mind
some of them told me don't think too much
but
if someone treated good to us
for sure
we have the feeling to them
isit?

last night was my 1st time do that...
i am so tired
i sit on the sofa chair at mois for 1 or 2 hour
until my brother come to find me
my eye was pain
haiz
thank for their care
they take care me lot so much yesterday
i am happy to know all of you
and
i am happy to know " YOU "

Holiday time....

yeah...
this few day really fun and happy for me
so relax
and
free
everyday also movie and shopping
tonite i don't know what will i do again

last time my mood break by my housemate
i hate the smell of durian
she is eating the durian in front of my room
midnite i suddenly wake up because of this smell
some more talk louder in front of my room
i am going to kill her
haiz

this morning wake up saw her face also no mood d
i hate this kind of ppl
eating durian all the door and window haven open also
stupid ppl la
we are staying in apartment
if didn't open the window and door
all the smell will fly in my house
how i going to sattle this ppl??
can you all teach me??

stop to talking about her
tonite movie again
haha!!

i lose here

终于
结束了
今天是我最后一次站在这比赛的舞台上
这次的失败
我真的很失望很难过
不是因为输了
是因为我自己做的不好
给评审失望了
对不起

一直以来评审对我都很好
对我的期望也很高
但是因为这次的主题是我的致命伤
“美人鱼”
结果我还是当不到美人了
刚刚评审告诉我
“你已经很好了，但是比你好的人还有很多所以我们只好选择那些最好的。”
真的很谢谢他们对我那么好
哈哈！
我会记得你们的

还有就是我的partner：
“谢谢你对我的好
我的照顾
你的心意我明白
但是我希望我们还是能最知己
如果你希望是在近一步的话
对不起
我做不到
因为我心里的那个他还没有离开”

说真的
我已经很开心自己至少可以走到这一步
至少我知道我可以的
我会继续往这方面走下去
谢谢评审还有参赛者对我的安慰
虽然我们认识不久
但你们都对我很好
就好像照顾我这位妹妹一样的好
你们要加油

失败对我来说是推动力
让我看清楚自己的缺点
还有加强自己
在往前走
这就是人生吧！
接下来就是要回去PG了
去赚钱

加油！！

working lo

i found a job d
ha ha
thank for my mum and Jesline so much
this is a useful work for me
even suitable to my job too
1 hour RM 5 include the comisen

another i RM1500 per month
the main thing is the time of working is free
i can work anytime when i am free
so fun
and i can learn to communicate with people and parent
this job is a experimental for young children

the children can know what their suitable to work in future
with using this experimental
the job need to do is just explain this to ppl
explain this experiment to customer
the company still need lot of ppl to work
need to go for 1 day training before working

for those are interest can inform me
leave the comment here
or
add me msn
seokhua88@hotmail.com
i will reply you all as soon as possible

thanks...
it is suitable for those are nothing to do at home
or for those who are need part time job
working time as you like
can just tell the company your free time
then they will arrange the working for you

thanks

alive

i am alive..
haha!!
yesterday was my last day exam
so fun..
especially the last paper
" music and drama for young children"

i know how to answer all the question
it was so happy now
because i didn't doing my revision at all
i have confident that i can get A in this subject

last few day exam make me die
damn tired
damn hard
all of us don't know what t write during the exam
yesterday i am very tired also
morning i can't wake up at all
but the after noon paper can do
morning special needs paper i think i will be fail again

now
don't think so much
play and working
earn money for myself and parents
haha
last nite already go to have fun
this few day also same
my mum ask me to go back
but i won't
i will stay here for few day

this time sem break was just few day
haiz

kill by book

kill by the book..
this subject book really kill me and all of my course mate
it too hard for us
even teacher already give us the note
but we still cannot understand
i am very worry about today subject
hope that the question that i worry won't be appear in the exam paper

this few day totally not enough slp
damn tired
damn sleepy
until last night 11.30pm
my eye close

last sat when i was doing the revision
one of my friend call me to go out (mois)
haha
after finish the club,
they say wan to go auto city to have morning breakfast
the time was 4am
really gila ppl...
i also follow all of them to there
until 5.30pm i reach penang
at that time, my sleeping time is over
totally cannot slp at all
i am really going to kill myself on that moment

seem that cannot slp
after i wake up and having my lunch
i continue my revision
only 1 part
that stupid part until today i also cannot understand
until now
later i don't know what i going to write d

it really kill me
pleaseeeee
the time pass over as soon as possible
i still wan to alive

home school partnership..

today i finish my 1st paper
haiz
what i can say is poor.
some of the question i don't know how to answer at all
some more today i am very tired
slp inside the class also
haha

whole class are doing the exam
but i am sleeping
about 15 min gua
then i just wake up to continue my study
my friend laugh at me when i wake up
so shame
because i told them i don't wan to slp yesterday
i wan to continue until this afternoon
but
i cannot tahan
at last i sleep also
it is too tired
and
i saw my panda eye come out again

when i reach school today
i saw all of my classmate doing their revision
but
i can't
this is my character lo...
i can't doing my revision before the few hour of exam
i need to relax myself
even i study also the words cannot go into my mind
lucky just not o can answer 4 question
only 1 of the question i don't know how to answer
thank god...

monday another paper come out
(Early Childhood Curriculum Approach)
gambateh friend
and myself

study week

wau...
really tired enough
i stay at home to do my revision this few day
morning until midnight
haha!
include watch movie also
i can't only concentrate in my study for whole day

i finish 2 subject revision in 4 day
too lot of thing and topic need to read
and catch up the point
the crazy lecture
give us so many assignment to do
all of us no have time also
only 1 week
haiz....

my mum scold me this morning
she say" where got ppl watch movie and do revision together wan? "
i told her this is my style to do revision
if not i cannot
she won't believe me...
up to her la..
as long as i can get a good results right??

this few day i realise that i got lot of thing are not understand at all
our lecture didn't teach us anything also in this semester
all of us didn't have note and point to study
what i going to do??
i scare the same thing will happen in next sem
i cannot tahan d
i can't learn anything
all the book she ask us to buy didn't used at all also

it is really a terrible study week
i scare my exam will...........die

what should i do ??

CaSiNo....outdoor theme park.....

yeah...
i am back from my trip
this is my terrible trip la..
but i miss it

in this trip
i go into the casino d
3 month more to reach 21 years old
luckily the people didn't check my ic
i use 200 buck to play big and small games
at first i take 50 buck to play first
because of i am not familiar with this games yet
so during the games i just put 10
i win back the money
but i lose the money again in the second round (the next day i go with my mum)

my crazy dad
win 10,000 on that day
so hurt for me
i lose he win
haiz....

outdoor theme park this time is not fun at all
most of the games i like to play is close
only the kids games available
waste my 44 buck
on that day,
there was a concert on arena star hall
4 singer are popular coming to genting
i got i ticket from a guy
he give me while i buying my shoes in vincci

so nice and good concert
even the singer is not my lovely singer
it was so blur and lazy yesterday when i coming back home
because i need to start my revision
until now
i still doing my revision
feel like want to close the book and watch my movie
but can't
i need to study well and get a good results

study study and study

genting time....thank you daddy

yeah!!
time to play...
tomorrow i will be going to genting with my family member
haha!!
i am the person that doing last min work
before exam i also can play and fun
if not i cannot concentrate in my study

i ask my daddy to bring me to genting
few day later
my mum told me that wan to book a room
haha!!
so nice
my daddy can listen what i say and tell wan
what i wan..he also can give
but not all
only for good thing

tomorrow morning we will taking breakfast in ipoh 1st
then just start our trip to genting
this time i wan to go into the casino d
try my luck to win the money
&
my luck to go inside
(because august only i will be 21)
hehe

only win 200 can d la
(it is quite hard right?)
just only for play
and experience

daddy you are the best
hope you can win lot of money again this time
then give me 10% can d
haha

let party together

let party together
haha!!
so enjoy, fun and relax
thank for my friend so much
thank for the support

last nite my friend bring me to mois
i meet lot of friend there
they give me lot of support
and i drunk lot also
until i stim stim
lucky i can when back home safety
they all mix the civas, beer and cola together
wau...
the taste is so nice
some more can stim early

the bad thing is i need to take care 2 big baby there
a boy baby and girl baby
haiz...
really teruk so much
i always keeping take care of ppl in mois
every time
every moment
some more the baby are not good baby
bad and naughty baby

another 1 funny thing
last nite when i fall as sleep lot of friend call me
but i don't know who are there
and i don't know what i tell them
die....die....die
this morning when i check back my phone i just know that they calling me
haiz

stupid people

i need rest??

this few day i really tired enought
contest
video shooting
photo shooting
some more i quarrel with wallance
haiz...

because of he didn't replay my message
and some personal thing
i really very angry with him
what he promise me..
he can't do well
erm.....i think
he didn't do at all
not going to talk with him anymore

this few day competition i very tired
i don't know
that is what i expect before i join this contest
even it is tired
but i miss the moment
especially the 100 contest
haha
my 1st time wearing bikini
and my 1st time got a good partner
haha!!
thank you for him so much

for the video shooting
it was a beach video for me and him
what we expect and what is our feeling go into 50 finalist
photo shooting make me crazy
haiz
they wan me to come out the own post
what i come out they don't like
.......

today i need to go back to pg d
i miss pg so much
i need to go back and meet my friend
and
don't wan to think so much about wallance
not going to bored him d

go back to play with my friend better
haha!!
miss them so much

50 finalist......

at last i win this round of contest again
haha!!
so happy now
this is really a challenge contest
i love it so much
and thank for my partner to help me
i will treat you to eat later

this morning i wake up 8am
so tired and lazy
so to have some preparation
reach the destination by 10am
when i saw the other contested
i really very scare
because all of them a beautiful and handsome
some of them like a model too

we a separated in to 50 group
1 girl and 1 boy
i get a handsome partner " Gary"
he is so so so tall
the contest will be the beach wear
we have 1 hour time to prepare ourselves
need to reach by 12pm
because of the time limited
my partner drive me to the shop to by a blue color bikini and hot pants
and he just wear the beach pants
this is my 1st time wear bikini

i told him that i scare to wear and i don't wan to wear
he scold me
haha!!
he say " you have the beautiful face and body shape "
“ you must wear la"
haha

i hear what he say and follow him
after buy the clothes
we quickly go back to the destination
8TV company
we have 1 personal room prepare
it is too plain if i just wear bikini
so he help me to draw something on my body
haha!
and i big cap

the judge say that we are the perfect match
handsome and beautiful
they will give us the change to continue this perfect match on next round

so so so happy now
thank for my friend bring me the luck
i will keep the luck
muackss

travel alone to KL

today i travel myself to Damansara after the class
so tired now
tomorrow morning is my 100 finalist contest already
morning i attend the class because of some reason
my lecture will given me some tip for exam
haha!!

this is my second time travel and drive myself to KL
haiz....
all my friend say i am very geng
erm
i not scare at all
even just now got a heavy rain on the way to KL
at first i wan to ask my parent to send me there
but they are not free at all
the only thing i can do is drive myself there
later need to sleep early
i am very hungry when i was driving just now
but i didn't stop at any rest station also

my mind is only want to reach the place early
now i am very scare
tomorrow contest ...
i don't know what i wan to do
i can concentrate to do anything now
so i decide to watch movie and write my feeling here
this is the only thing i can relax myself

hope tomorrow i can do well
and have the est performance tomorrow
thank for my coursemate send me the wish
and my friends too
thank for the support
i will bring the wish and support into my contest tomorrow
wait for my good new oh!!
haha!!